prayer

Prayer has always been apart of my life.
Both talking to Jesus and saying structured prayers, like the Our Father or Hail Mary.
I have asked people to pray for me in a wide arrange of topics and I know that there have been people that have prayed for me using their own discernment of what I needed prayer for.
I pray for people.
I have developed a prayer journal where I list the people I need/want to pray for and I try to carve out a few moments everyday to read the pages.
Its nothing fancy or sacred. Its a small notebook from target. My kids at various times have gotten ahold of it and it has had pages torn out, that are now loose in the note book. It has scribbles in it and food stains as well. I keep it ontop of our little 13inch TV in our room.
Its not a holy spot set up for formal meditation. It is a place that my notebook landed when I was trying to keep it away from my kids, which still works since my kids eyes aren't that tall yet. But it has become the home for my "prayer time." My kids still cant reach it and it is tall enough to be comfortable for me to read standing up.
I don't have a set time each day to pray out of my prayer journal. It happens when it catches my eye as I am walking through my room, usually with Bailey in my arms trying to pick up the house.
I recently had someone ask me something that I have NEVER had anyone ask me and it has left a lasting impression on me.

"HOW CAN WE PRAY FOR YOU?"


as in what do you want us to pray for you about? I guess we as people are sometimes bashful in asking for specific prayer or we complain about something and ask people to pray for us in a broad sense. But I have never thought to ask someone what they want ME to pray for them about. like a shopping list , "hey I'm going to the store do you need anything?" "yeah can you pick me up a loaf of bread... the daily bread by trader joes, green label, its on the bottom shelf, second rack from the dips" specific like that.
It has got me thinking alot more about prayer and has made me reflect alot more on what is God's will for my life at this time. I often feel like I am battling what God wants me to do. I cant imagine myself doing anything other than what I'm doing(OK well I sometimes FANTASIZE about doing something else but I cant imagine myself actually doing it) but I often feel like I'm failing at what I am currently doing and there in lies the struggle, the battle. I don't have any clever sentence to wrap up this post, I just felt like sharing.